'I Thought I Was Going To Die.' Celebrities Talk About Their Struggle With Mental Illness.

1. Russell Brand

"I lost all my jobs, all my relationships and became unbearable to be around. When I came out of treatment, I was bruised and damaged. Then I got the confidence back. Im constantly working on myself."

2. Emma Stone

"The first time I had a panic attack, I was sitting in my friend's house and I thought the house was burning down. I called my mom and she brought me home, and for the next three years it just wouldn't stop."

3. Jack Harries

Now, the stigma surrounding mental health isnt surprising at all. A mental illness generally suggests that something is wrong with the brain. Our brain is our control center. Its responsible for everything we do, and the idea of something being wrong with the brain generally suggests that were out of control. And as humans we hate that idea.

We hate it so much that we just dont talk about it. We sweep it under the rug and pretend that its not there. But it is. Mental illnesses are a thing. Theyre real, and theyre very present. And we need to talk about them.

4. Beyonc

Now that I was famous, I was afraid Id never find somebody again to love me for me. I was afraid of making new friends. Then one day my mom said, Why do you think a person wouldnt love you? Dont you know how smart and sweet and beautiful you are? Thats when I decided I only have two choices: I can give up, or I can go on.

5. Troian Bellisario (Pretty Little Liars)

"[Seventeen Magazine] asked me what I was like when I was 17 and I wasnt going to say, I was great! because I wasnt. I was suffering from a mental disorder. But what I so often find is that it becomes about the facts. How much weight did you lose? How were you treated? Were you hospitalized? And thats not important to me. What is important is ... (Continued)


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What is important is to talk about the feelings, to talk about the help that young girls, and young men, who have this problem can get if they find that they are suffering."

6. John Green (The mind behind "The Fault in Our Stars" and "Paper Towns")

"I take medication daily and have for many years. I also try to exercise a lot, because theres some evidence that exercise lessens the symptoms of anxiety, and I try to use the strategies that Ive learned in cognitive behavioral therapy to cope with my illness. But its a chronic illness and it hasnt, like, gone into remission or anything for me. Its something I live with, something that Ive integrated into my life. And we all have to integrate stuff into our lives, whether its mental illness or physical disability or whatever. There is hope. There is treatment. You are not alone, and while I know the struggle feels at times completely hopeless and futile, there is a far shore for the vast majority of people, and I wish you the best."

7. Lady Gaga

"I learned that my sadness never destroyed what was great about me. You just have to go back to that greatness, find that one little light thats left. Im lucky I found one little glimmer stored away."

8. Sarah Silverman

"I first experienced depression when I was 13. I was walking off a bus from a school camping trip. The trip had been miserable: I was, sadly, a bed wetter, and I had Pampers hidden in my sleeping baga gigantic and shameful secret to carry. My mom was there to pick me up, and she was taking pictures like a paparazzo. Seeing her made the stress of the last few days hit home, and something shifted inside me. It happened as fast as the sun going behind a cloud. You know how you can be fine one moment, and the next it's, "Oh my God, I fking have the flu!"? It was like that. Only this flu lasted for three years. My whole perspective changed. I went from being the class clown to not being able to see life in that casual way anymore. (Continued)


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I couldn't deal with being with my friends, I didn't go to school for months, and I started having panic attacks. People use "panic attack" very casually out here in Los Angeles, but I don't think most of them really know what it is. Every breath is labored. You are dying. You are going to die. It's terrifying. And then when the attack is over, the depression is still there. Once, my stepdad asked me, "What does it feel like?" And I said, "It feels like I'm desperately homesick, but I'm home."

9. Jim Carrey

"There are peaks, there are valleys. But they're all kind of carved and smoothed out. And it feels like a low level of despair you live in. While you're not getting any answers, but you're living okay. And you can smile at the office. You know? But it's a low level of despair."

10. Taylor Swift

"I'm always terrified that something's going to happen. And I'm not going to be able to do this anymore and it's all going to end in one day. Part of the fear comes from loving this so much and not wanting to lose it."

11. Johnny Depp

"You can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel."

12. Halle Berry

"I was sitting in my car, and I knew the gas was coming, when I had an image of my mother finding me. She sacrificed so much for her children, and to end my life would be an incredibly selfish thing to do. My sense of worth was so low. I had to (Continued)


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reprogram myself to see the good. Just because someone didn't love me didn't mean I was unloveable."

13. Jennifer Lawrence

"I just try to acknowledge that the scrutiny is stressful, and that anyone would find it stressful. So I've got to try to let it go, and try to be myself, and focus on important things, like picking up dog poop."

14. Miley Cyrus

"So many people look at [my depression] as me being ungrateful, but that is not it. I can't help itThere's nothing worse than being fake happy."

15. J.K Rowling

I have never been remotely ashamed of having been depressed. Never. Whats to be ashamed of? I went through a really rough time and I am quite proud that I got out of that.

16. Lena Dunham

"I have obsessive compulsive disorder and it started manifesting itself when I was five. Its not like I had an opportunity to exist in a carefree way."

"Its hard enough to have a child, much less a child who demands to inspect our groceries and medicines for evidence that their protective seals have been tampered with. I have only the vaguest memory of a life before fear. Every morning when I wake up... (Continued)


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there is one blissful second before I look around the room and remember my daily terrors."

Lena Dunham shared a powerful workout selfie on Instagram recently.

"To those struggling with anxiety, OCD, depression: I know its mad annoying when people tell you to exercise, and it took me about 16 medicated years to listen. Im glad I did. It aint about the (butt), its about the brain."

17. Jon Hamm

"I did do therapy and antidepressants for a brief period, which helped me. Which is what therapy does: it gives you another perspective when you are so lost in your own spiral. It helps."

18. Winona Ryder

"I had just had my first real break-up, the first heartbreak. And I think it was really ironic because, like, everybody else just thought I had everything in the world, and I had no reason to be depressed. Everything was sort of at its peak, but inside I was completely lost. I remember thinking, 'I can't complain about anything because I'm so lucky. I'm so lucky."

19. Demi Lovato

"Mental illness has no prejudice. It affects people of every race, age, gender, and economic status. It doesn't discriminate between Republicans or Democrats, either."

When talking about her own experiences, she said:

Its my mission to share this with the world and to let them know that there is life on the other side of those dark times that seem so hopeless and helpless. I want to show the world that there is life surprising, wonderful and unexpected life after diagnosis.

20. Pete Wentz

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It begins to feel uncomfortable not to be depressed. You feel guilty for feeling happy."

21. Gwyneth Paltrow

"I felt like a zombie. I couldn't access my emotions. I thought postpartum depression meant you were sobbing every single day and incapable of looking after a child. But there are different shades and depths of it."

22. Drew Carey

"Living in Hollywood, you can get disconnected from everybody. You can feel like you are the only one. So you feel it. You hold it in and you don't let go and you don't try to find help because you think, 'Oh man, if I tell anybody, I'm going to seem like I'm weak. I won't get a movie deal."

23. Sheryl Crow

"I suffer from depression, and at its worst there was a six-month period in my twenties when I couldn't dress, days when I couldn't leave the house. Antidepressants helped and so did therapy. It's always been part of my life."

24. Catherine Zeta-Jones

"I'm not the kind of person who likes to shout out my personal issues from the rooftops but, with my bipolar becoming public, I hope fellow sufferers will know it is completely controllable. I hope I can help remove any stigma attached to it, and that those who don't have it under control will seek help with all that is available to treat it."

25. Michelle Obama

"Whether an illness affects your heart, your leg or your brain, its still an illness. So there should be absolutely no stigma around mental health. None. Zero."

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