People Reveal The Hardest Thing They've Ever Had To Admit To Themselves
It's hard to face the truth. So long as you don't know what's really happening, it's easy to live in a self-constructed lie. "Don't worry," you tell yourself, "maybe they really DID like my meatloaf casserole."
No, no they didn't. And that's okay! Coming to terms with a harsh truth can make you stronger as a person and, overall, improve your mental state. Still, admitting something awful about yourself doesn't mean it's going to be easy.
Reddit user, u/son_of_x, wanted to know what you had to reveal to yourself when they asked:
When There's No One Else To Blame
That I sabotage myself and create most of my problems.
When You Belay You're Own Happiness
That I'm putting off getting a better job and moving out because I'm afraid to.
Currently doing this now. I'm afraid I'll have no money to be able to pay bills, rent and groceries. I'm afraid of everything.
When You've Done It, You've Done ItGiphy
No matter how much you apologize, if you've f-cked up, you've f-cked up. The damage has been done.
Yeah. Got a genuine apology from someone who hurt me a few months ago. It came from the heart and I know he meant every word... but it didn't erase how he hurt me. He let me down.
When You Know She Isn't Coming Back
That even though I am still in love with her, she is over me and moving on.
When You Aren't What You Think You Are
It's not that girls don't like nice guys, it's that I'm not as nice of a guy as I think
I wish more guys realized this.
When You're Not As Close As You Think
That I have best friends, but I'm not their best friend. The general realization that most of my relationships are very much one-sided, and no matter how hard I try, I can't force anyone to love or even like me.
It's a lonely existence.
When You Know The Dice Can Be Rolled Any Which WayGiphy
Working harder doesn't actually guarantee any sort of success.
When You Know The Real Reason
People dont like me usually. They assume Im angry, or unapproachable. Ill always be the loner, or odd one out. Thats ok. Im just very quiet by nature, and people mistake being quiet for being unfriendly. I can hold a conversation if there's something I like. My interests are very specific though, and my humor is sometimes too sarcastic.
I have very few friends, practically none right now, but I know Im capable of friendship.
When You Know You're Worth It
That I deserve love and respect as much as anybody else. Still have trouble believing it most days.
When People Don't Actually Care For You
Just because a person wants what's best for me, or for me to succeed, doesn't mean they care if I'm truly happy. Or what my definition of success it.
When The Loneliness Becomes Your Friend
That there is a pretty big chance that given my circumstances (read: not really dating anyone for more than 10 years, thus missing much of the basic experiences a young adult goes through) - I will eventually not find anyone who 1) understands that, 2) accepts that 3) on top of 1) and 2) will fall in love with me
When You Come To Terms With Your Boredom
How bland and uninteresting i am as a person. I have nothing to talk about besides video games, movies and tv shows. I dont have any deep thoughts about life, relationship stories and life experience. I realized it makes me boring as a person and that in order to fix it, i need to stop working as much and live my life. Really get out and do stuff. I feel like a spectator in my own life sometimes.
When The Love Of A Mother Is Non-Existent
My mother is incapable of loving me.
When It's Not Really Them, Rather The Idea
I tend to romanticise my crushes, and fall in love with the idea of them, not them.
It's actually happening all over again right now...
When You Know You'll Never Open Up
I'm not extroverted. it sounds mundane and basic but it's something that's really putting stress on my identity. everybody knows me as a loud and outgoing girl, but I'm really really shy and can barely leave the house. People always seem dissapointed when meeting me because of this..
When Bojack Comes In To Open Your Eyes
One of the hardest thing I heard is from Bojack Horseman:
"Oh, great, of course, here it comes. You can't keep doing this. You can't keep doing sh-tty things, and then feel bad about yourself like that makes it okay. You NEED to be better!…No, no, Bojack just, stop. YOU are all the things that are wrong with you. It's not the alcohol, or the drugs, or any of the sh-tty things that happened to you in your career or when you were a kid. It's you alright? It's you. F-ck man, what else is there to say?"
Really hit me hard and funny that it's a adult comedy cartoon that made me realize this thing.
When You Know You'll Never Do The Thing
That even even though I always talk about wanting to make a video game, and have the skills to do so, I'll never actually do it because the last thing I want to do after a full days work staring at a code editor, is to come home and stare at a code editor.
Sure, maybe that'll change some day, but it's hard to put into simple terms just how mentally exhausting it can be when you're working as a software engineer. Sure, some days are easy and fun, but a lot of times you spend most of the day in the trenches, mashing your face into code that isn't well written, isn't well documented, and the people you need to ask about how it works don't remember because they wrote it 5 years ago.
Maybe I'm not passionate enough, and that makes me a shitty engineer, even though I do love my work, but I love my wife and my time with her more than I love my work.
When You Were Just A Big Fish In A Small PondGiphy
That I'm not as smart as I think.
All throughout elementary, middle, and high school, I was in the "gifted" program and always had teachers acting like I was a god damn genius. It was reinforced even more by my parents.
Then, I got to college and realized, "damn, there are hundreds of people out there who are just as intelligent as me, and hundreds more who are even more intelligent." I always prided myself in my intelligence, and experiencing that kind of ruined everything for me. It doesn't bother me now, but it was something that took a minute to get used to.
When You Know What You Have To Do
That I was morbidly obese and HAD to lose weight. So, I started walking and watching how much I ate, and over the last three years have lost 197 lbs. I have 35 more lbs to go.
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